I JUST TURNED 23

I’m quite lucky.

Despite all the shit life’s throwing at me at work, I have a wonderful family that supports me, an encouraging partner whose ears are always for my ranting, a cute dog that makes me smile; and friends who are always there for my aid.

I recently celebrated my 23rd Birthday, and I did it at one of my bestfriend’s house, as a treat from her family(** thanks a lot Tita! You’re really sweet J ). My friends are the siblings I never had; precisely because my brothers and I aren’t really close (but we’re okay). There to celebrate with me was JM, our dog Miguelito, my straight-bestfriend Gary, my two straight-bestfriends (female) Candy & Arianne, and my rainbow-bestfriend, Ramon. Also there were our favorite Tita Lanie, single, successful, and gorgeous; as well as Tito Cesar & Tita Carol Drilon – Candy’s parents.

To be honest, I really didn’t feel like celebrating my 23rd Birthday…

Since March, I have been contemplating on whether I’m in the right career path; primarily because right now, I’m 90% unhappy with my job (if you’ve been reading my previous blog, you’d understand). Because of all the stress at work – (1) work itself, (2) my qualms at work on whether I should leave or not (3) and my broken perceptions of people in the office, I felt like celebrating my birthday would be futile.

My friend Candy called it a Birthday Dinner, so I suppose that’s fine J hehe.

People say that on your birthday, you are entitled to one special wish; and knowing me, I took that prerogative to the grain. Unfortunately, until know, it hasn’t exactly materialized, yet. What I wished for my birthday was “enlightenment.” At this point where my mind is all mixed with emotions, objectivity, work, and everything else in-between, I asked God for enlightenment and for me to see the painting clearly. To be more specific, I seek wisdom to know how to go about my professional career… to provide me signs if I should take a leap to the other industry which I like best, or stay and “learn” in my current one.

At the end of the day, I know that it is I who will walk through the door; and He can only show me the way. – Noted.

I believe I’m seeing it, bit by bit, and I’m getting there.

At the end of the day, I feel lucky with everything, every person, every relationship that I have for the past 23 years.

As for my problems, I just turned 23, and I suppose, it is part of growing up.


PS: thanks for all those who greeted me on my special day. May you be blessed, and find peace. J